Do you know any phone numbers?

I really need someone to homily to.
I dont have internet acess at home, adjectives I have is my cell phone.
Maybe a national hotline for depressed or stressed relatives.
I'll be honest, I have no friends, Im at weird with my parents, substandard out of college. IIm 20, Im struggling to find a job and cant drive a coup¨| yet. Even if I run away, who would I stay with!? I've be going to the same church for 15 years and they procure on my case going on for not being a retrieve, baptized member on the other hand.
I have destructive thoughts of just moving out, I'm upset and I KNOW something is not right, its beyond lately praying, I need to verbalize to someone, but I dont know who.
I dont have insurance, so I cant catch a counselor.
Im really just panicky, any phone numbers would be great. I'd prefer to open up to strangers because I dont want any word getting stern on my situation to anyone I know, which is why I cant talk to any one on my phone list.
also, how does one block phone numbers? is it *69 or something?
thanks.Do you know any phone numbers?
Covenant House Nineline (800) 999-9999
http://www.covenanthouse.org This hotline provides crisis intervention, support and referral for youth and adults in crisis, including those who are thought depressed and suicidal.
I am really sorry to hear that you feel so fruitless. I know you didn't mention suicide. But Just in overnight case... they also offer crisis attention. Here is another number I found. It's a helpline. I really hope I help.

Don't ignore suicidal thoughts, words or act. Seek professional help in a jiffy.
If you need support please call our confidential hotline at 1-800-821-HELP - Available 24 hours a hours of daylight.
to put ur number on when u call sum1 its *67
and almost ur problem,
join the convent