Do you dwell on negativity?

Do you dwell on negativity?
No. I dont dwell on anything. I focus, seek and find.
I am afraid i do. I judge it is a defense to keep from self disappointed when things don't happen the means of access i want.Then i can say,I told you so. it is an awfull need and i think allot of us receive it from a learned infatuation.It 's not a happy channel to live and I have to work on it everyday.
I sometimes dwell roughly speaking the girls who I wanted to be friends beside that ended up snubbing me stale cause I didn't own any wealth or popularity and how I enjoy fewer friends than they do.
at times i do. i own to make an hard work to focus on the positive spin on many situations.
i dont dwell on negativity as such , but enjoy a problem recognizing positivity